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“Listen through your screams to the wind still whispering: Don’t give up — Surrender!”
~ Eric Ganther

“The reason why many are still troubled, still seeking, still making little forward progress is because they haven’t yet come to the end of themselves. We’re still trying to give orders, and interfering with God’s work within us. “
~ A.W. Tozer

“The ego hates losing – even to God.”
~ Richard Rohr, Falling Upward: A Spirituality for the Two Halves of Life

pictures_Page_49Sometimes it’s hard to surrender and trust that God or our higher power has a better plan for our lives. Our little egos are sure they have it all figured out if only God would agree to the plan and then escort it in on our timeline.

I have to tell you I don’t want to move twice. Yet I also know there is wisdom in doing so. I would have never wanted to move in the dead of winter. Yet my inner wisdom told me to sell when I had a “hot buyer” and is telling me now to turn our house over to our new buyers as soon as we can (our goal at this point is to be out by the end of January.) Over the years I’ve learned to trust that intuitive wisdom.

I know from experience that it’s only when we are truly surrendered that the mystery can enter in. I don’t know how it will all unfold, or how long I will have to wait, or how much inconvenience I might have to endure, but I’m going to choose to do it as joyfully as I can and trust that God has a better plan. I will get down on my knees and pray for God’s plan to be revealed. I will wait. I will work the tools of my 12-step program and do my best to continue to surrender and to believe. (BTW, I am so grateful to be working this plan right now.)

Where in your life do you need to surrender? What have you learned about this place? What stories of faith do you have? (Please feel free to share.) I once heard that we don’t learn about faith so much as when our lives are working well, but when we are struggling and choose to believe. This holiday season…I’m grateful to have the opportunity to deepen my faith. I’m grateful for surrender.

Listen to Your Heart

“What’s wrong with the world,” Nana explained, “is that people stopped listening to their hearts…

“Not everybody stopped listening,” she continued, “but enough people did to make a difference. We’ve got so much in this life that all we know how to do is want more. So we concentrate on the wrong things–things we can see–as being the measure of a person. We think if we can win something big or buy something snazzy it’ll make us more than we are. Our hearts know that’s not true, but the eyes are powerful. It’s easier to fix on what we can see than listen to the still, small voice of a whispering heart.”

Nana turned her eyes on me like a vet looking for fleas: “A heart will say amazing things if it’s given half a chance.”

~Joan Bauer, Squashed

iStock_000010996529LargeI remember when my first husband died over twenty years ago I was given the chance to start life anew. I wasn’t clear on what my dreams were anymore because my life had just been turned upside down. But I was clear of one thing: I wanted to live a life that had heart and meaning; I wanted to be able to follow my heart and to live the dream that life had for me.

It took several years of shedding old skins before I could even consider a dream. First I had to grieve my old life, then I had to find out who I was now that I was no longer a wife, mother, or employee (since all of these roles changed within a period of 18 months.) Then I had to be willing to wait and listen so that I could hear the deeper longings of my soul. I would say during that time I had a spiritual transformation and I went from the traditional trappings of the ego of wanting a nice house and a fancy car to wanting to live a life in alignment to the God/Goddess within.

For a couple of years, I waited, listened, and agonized as I waited to be shown. Eventually I emerged from that time knowing that I was here to help others to overcome their limitations and to give support to others moving through spiritual transformation. Thus began the life I am living now which continues to open and expand in ways I could have never imagined as I continue to follow the urgings of my heart.

Sometimes I can still fall off the beam especially when I let my life become too busy. That’s why I make the time for the daily prayer and meditation that it is a part of my 12-step program even when it means getting up at 5:30 or 6:00 every morning. It slows me down enough so I can hear the amazing things my heart has to say. What might you heart have to say? Success and abundance doesn’t necessarily mean you have to have the best everything. I think it’s more related to: “Did you follow and live what is inside you?”

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